I miss everyone and everything in my life right now. And they are all right next to me. Grades have dropped and i have to worry about keeping them up ...and im worried im not gonna be able to do what i want to do ...go where i want to go ..without doing all these things. But i havent hung out with my friends in weeks because i always ahve something or they do ...and i feel distant. It hurts me to think that i could ever be distant from my friends. Any of you that reads this please dont take it the wrong way i love you and i need you . ive just been feeling a bit weird lately and i cant put my finger on it


so here is my comfort...writing it down ...getting it off my chest ....sorry for all yall who thought that was going to interesting..

Hey everyone..yes I know what you?re thinking?is it really lauren?? Well it is . I?m sorry iv?e been gone so long. I don?t have any time anymore. I miss everyone. Thank you for the nice little notes and things. Maybe ill submit something soon after I attempt to write something too submit. My writers block is terrible right now. Just wanted to say hi and get this journal from months ago off. Things are going alright. Im tired and school is very stressful because I have midterms this next week. But I?ll get through it. I hope everyone is well and happy. Especially everyone that I havent seen lately or at all. You should know who you are. I love you all <3

~lauren**

Hey everyone..yes I know what you?re thinking?is it really lauren?? Well it is . I?m sorry iv?e been gone so long. I don?t have any time anymore. I miss everyone. Thank you for the nice little notes and things. Maybe ill submit something soon after I attempt to write something too submit. My writers block is terrible right now. Just wanted to say hi and get this journal from months ago off. Things are going alright. Im tired and school is very stressful because I have midterms this next week. But I?ll get through it. I hope everyone is well and happy. Especially everyone that I havent seen lately or at all. You should know who you are. I love you all <3

~lauren**

Ever had the urge to just run away ???

Well anyone want a new sister??

Becuase if i could i would...
i love my family but i am so freaking fed up with my mom and how she controls things??

She told me that i cant spend the night when i have to work the next day..thats total BS..i dont work till 9 and i have done it in the past..I am thoroughly capable of doing the job just as well and i even played a whole game of Fh after with no complaints or problems....

ITS SUMMER..this is the only break i get..and its not even a break anymore..i cant spend time with my friends even the ones i never get to see....

It breaks me up i dont think she wants to see me happy...

i have spent the last two weekends doing chores for her..i mean i know sometimes that i need to and i also should spend some time with my family but i ahve spent ample time doing botha and we go on family vacation next week and the weekends bafore and afte in which i will be able to see none of my friends!!!!

After that preseason starts and thats pretty much school so i dont see how its too much to ask for just that!?!?! DO YOU!?!?!?

I know lifes not fair.....but sometimes id relaly like to run away .....or become a horrible child just to see waht theyd do if i was bad???

I dont do drugs go out to have sex im 7th in my class i do all honors classes i have a job , i do volunteer work ..im almost to good for my own good...SOMETIMES i jsut NEED to be BAD!!!

Then what would they say maybe it would be easier! aLL ID HAVE TO DO IS LEAVE.

AHHHH!!! Ill get over it ..but this is my one chance at childhood..its quickly ending i want to have fun and live life to its fullest and see the ones who make my world go round...before the end of time !!!




EVERYONE ..i love you and im sorry that its not fair and that i dont get to see any of you that often i wish i could do something without bigger consequences! It frustrates me soo much!!!

So i haven't written in forever..but I also dont have much to say!

summer is busy like the rest of my life, but i wouldn't have it any other way.....I'm not worrying about anything and I'm not stressed...I'm jsut laid back and enjoying it.

Drivers ed is boring...Field Hockey is amazing...I have a tournament July 17 and 18! ..Which I can't wait for!..Work starts in a couple weeks..playing with little kids..tiring but not so bad

Hope everyone is having a GREAT summer...enjoy it while you still can !

I'm sorry to say that I havent had much time for writing or anything ..and if I dont get back to people ASAp..im so sorry and its not you ..its a combo between business and my computer be frigged up ...

Love you all <loved>